Never did I thought that problems in life can come at like 3 times at one go.
Never did I also thought that they cannot be solved at one go.
So the other day, one fine Saturday.
It feels like God slapped my face for 3 times and asked me to wake up.
Firstly, I had a fought with kakak and we made mak cry for not speaking up to her.
It's like as if she felt like she failed bringing us up.
Like she deserve to know what's going on.
Which is true, she deserves to know.
But I know my sister too well and she knows me as well,
we dare NOT speak up.
And we also both know that this kind of matter ends really soon.
Eventually did.
Although I still feel like I deserve to be sad and heartbroken with ze things mentioned.
Nvm that. Glad that things are theekhai now. (Y)
Second, hmmmm.
It sucks to financially broke and to see your friends actually paying for lunch
given the condition I am at.
It sucks to have no notes at all in you wallet
As a 21 year old girl who alrdy graduated with a Diploma.
I was stupid to have quit the job just like that I do admit that.
The fact that I have to pay almost 300bucks for quitting my ass mcm gitu je. HAH!
So mana I nak gi carik duit gitu if...
I receive no calls sia from these employers?
Thirdly,
Every true love story has a sad ending I guess.
So whoever reads this, might have known what's happening.
I lost everything.
Lost my mind, lost my dreams, my trust, lost my entire believe towards relationships.
I just don't know how to feel right now.
Cause I failed the third time, I lose him the third time.
Although it's the least expected way for me to lose you like this A.
But I have never ever regret being with you.
And I'm surprised, with the way we ended us. So humble, yet calm.
Makes me feel like I can still have some glimpse of hope,
a little more chances to take, to share this heart with you.
InsyaAllah. If our jodoh is in his hands,
we'll meet again even if it takes years to be together.
As lost as I am. As heartbroken as I am now,
I still have guts to be positive. :)
I know things will be in place eventually will get better.
Ya Allah, please do show me the way. :'(
Lots of Love,
zsznh.
