1st April 2012 happened too fast and I will never ever forget that incident.
It'll always be fresh in my mind.
The day was really normal, our 38th. <3
A joined my family for lunch at ECP and things were oh so normal.
I believe we all had a lot of fun.
But things went the other way round when me and A left to spend some time together.
So basically we talked and A told me things.
And I wasn't happy with what he told. I got too angry and couldn't help
but cry in e midst of Tampines..
I wasn't afraid to cry. I wasn't shy.
I mean what's the point of holding back those tears?
And then I walked away knowing that it's all over.
Until I was shocked by the way he pulled my hand out of a sudden and pulled me to the side.
That moment, felt like hell.
Begged me, forcing me not to leave.
I cried even more, not knowing what to do. Just cried and asking him to let go.
Cause all I wanted was to leave. And I ran away.
I didn't blame him for not knowing that. I knew he got scared as well.
I am sorry but I couldnt help it A.
As my lover you need to know I hate being forced like that cause
it can give me trauma.
I really do apologize for my unusual behaviour.
Too much drama and I need to breathe. I need to calm down.
I know our relationship is on the rocks now.
On the verge of falling apart.
But I want to believe that somehow, somewhere,
deep inside our hearts and minds, we wanna fix this and believe
it gets better.
Until I was shocked by the way he pulled my hand out of a sudden and pulled me to the side.
That moment, felt like hell.
Begged me, forcing me not to leave.
I cried even more, not knowing what to do. Just cried and asking him to let go.
Cause all I wanted was to leave. And I ran away.
I didn't blame him for not knowing that. I knew he got scared as well.
I am sorry but I couldnt help it A.
As my lover you need to know I hate being forced like that cause
it can give me trauma.
I really do apologize for my unusual behaviour.
Too much drama and I need to breathe. I need to calm down.
I know our relationship is on the rocks now.
On the verge of falling apart.
But I want to believe that somehow, somewhere,
deep inside our hearts and minds, we wanna fix this and believe
it gets better.
Even if it doesn't A, I will tell everyone you were the best part of my life.
Let's just leave it to Allah.
I know he'll lead us somewhere love.
Lots of love,
zsznh.-
