I shall not bring up this matter to anyone anymore cause no one really gets it.
No one really understand the exact feeling I'm feeling right now.
Try not talking to your mom for two days. When you know that you're not the one to be blamed. Yep, that's my situation now.
Mom asked me two days ago : Do I have plans on Sunday?
I said : Yep, going out with A.
Mom : Huh then I want to cook, nanti orang datang how?
I said : How would I know, A already plans to go out with me.
Mom : Why do you even plan like I don't exist?
And there's the exact part where my heart shattered into pieces.
First of all, how is this even my fault to begin with?
Mak, you didn't even ask me about my plans earlier but you instead made your own plans, for my birthday?
So siapa kena marah siapa?
Second of all, it's my birthday and why are u the one planning?
I'm not trying to disrespect you but it is very fairly logical that I should be the one getting angry cause you made plans without telling me?
I'm just the way with the way you thought I'd forget you.
When I don't even have any intention to do that to you.
And I've never thought that you never exist.
Mom, in anything, everywhere, or every word that i speak,
I'll always relate it to you somehow. You are in my heart, mind, body & soul 100%, 24/7, always, all the time and forever.
It never crossed my mind to hurt you like this.
But I'm turning 20 and you won't talk to me for 2 days.
This is heart-breaking.
Please talk to me mom before I turn 20 at least?
It'll mean a lot to me.
I just need justice.
zsznh. <3
