Someone should have given me this song now.
I don't care alr who's reading it. Or listening to it.
But you should know who you are.
#randompost
zsznh.
Why do I get back to the same person every single time even when there's someone
out there whom they thought I deserve better?
Why do I still choose him even after all those things we've been through?
Why do we still have to meet each other, call each other, text each other everyday
even if it's not necessarily needed.
Why?
Cause he's there. He's there when I don't even need him. He's just there all the more I wanna avoid him. He's there, telling me I'll still be okay when I know I'm not.
He's there, trying to fight for us, trying to make things right.
He's there trying to make me feel better, and the best part is he knows when I'm not.
He Knows My Flaws And All.
It may take time for us to be the way we are now, but things are getting better.
It may sound RIDICULOUS to some people that we're together, but what can they do about it?
They have their say, we have ours.
A knows everything. He knows me, well and true enough.
He needs to know that whatever the future is like for us, I'll be standing there right beside him
He needs to know that we may fight a little, argue a little,
cry a little, or maybe pinch each other more(iknowialwaysdothathehe)
But we'll still tell each other 'iloveyou' more, hug each other all the time, spend time with each other, buy cute things for us, and stuff each other with more food.
Trust me I'll always do that.
You know me well, and you know me best A.
What do I have to lose, when I know you're the one.
What do I have to lose, when I know I get you back to be in my life.
I <3 you more than you ever knew A.
Let's walk together on this rough patch. I'll still be by your side.
zsznh.
p/s : thanks for gg around to find yogurt for me. hehehe I ate it twice today.
I shall not bring up this matter to anyone anymore cause no one really gets it.
No one really understand the exact feeling I'm feeling right now.
Try not talking to your mom for two days. When you know that you're not the one to be blamed. Yep, that's my situation now.
Mom asked me two days ago : Do I have plans on Sunday?
I said : Yep, going out with A.
Mom : Huh then I want to cook, nanti orang datang how?
I said : How would I know, A already plans to go out with me.
Mom : Why do you even plan like I don't exist?
And there's the exact part where my heart shattered into pieces.
First of all, how is this even my fault to begin with?
Mak, you didn't even ask me about my plans earlier but you instead made your own plans, for my birthday?
So siapa kena marah siapa?
Second of all, it's my birthday and why are u the one planning?
I'm not trying to disrespect you but it is very fairly logical that I should be the one getting angry cause you made plans without telling me?
I'm just the way with the way you thought I'd forget you.
When I don't even have any intention to do that to you.
And I've never thought that you never exist.
Mom, in anything, everywhere, or every word that i speak,
I'll always relate it to you somehow. You are in my heart, mind, body & soul 100%, 24/7, always, all the time and forever.
It never crossed my mind to hurt you like this.
But I'm turning 20 and you won't talk to me for 2 days.
This is heart-breaking.
Please talk to me mom before I turn 20 at least?
It'll mean a lot to me.
I just need justice.
zsznh. <3
