Why do I always have to the one keeping your lies?
Why do I always have to face all your stupid hypocrite life?
And worst of all, why do I have to be your sister?
You have actually now successfully revealed the worst out of you.
And I swear I simply give up on you.
You may tell me next that I don't understand your situation.
You may tell me next that you don't deserve this treatment from me.
I remembered, the last thing I told you was "Don't do this to him"
But you fucking heck care. So now I'm telling you how disappointed I am with you.
You chose a fucking BIKE over a man's sincere heart?
You chose someone whom you know NUTS about over someone you know for many many months?
You chose to believe someone who said "May the best man win" over someone who told you that he will be engaged to you this coming year?
You're so stupid to have trusted someone else just like that.
God gave you ENOUGH, and you wanted more. Have you ever realised how much that hurt me to see you lying to the man who loves you dearly and it sucks to be me cause I'm like the only one who knows your ugly truth.
Eh aku penat tau.. Aku penat tengok kau macam gini. Kau happy2 eh bertenggek atas motor jantan tu, abeh matair kau hari2 msg aku tanya aku mcm mana dia nak save korang punya relationship. Eh tolong ahh bukak lah mata favour lah please.. Are you like born stupid or what?
And you're lying! You can lie to him and say that he haven't spend enough time with you? You can lie to him and say that your love for him is fading? You're so pathetic I swear. He was working. Working for 12 bloody hours every single day to save the bloody money for your bloody engagement damn it!
Your love for him was fading because kau gatal nak mampos pegi chat dengan jantan lain~
I'm tired I swear.. I'm tired for being the one who cover up your nose every single time.
I'm tired at looking at your stupid lying face now.
I hope you read this cause my heart is too heavy to speak up and talk to you.
I want you to read this so that you realise how disappointed I am with what you did to him.
I want you to read this. Cause I really can't speak, knowing that you're much elder and I've always looked at you as an example. I want you to deserve that much respect from me. I am that scared to speak up cause I don't want to ruin the whole thing. But now respect is going down the drain.
But I can't be the one supporting you now.
Trust me, from now onwards, any other guy who steps in the house.. I'll never look at him the same way I did to you ex-s. Was told you wanna know what's wrong with me acting like this towards you.
There you go. The reasons are all above.
Just try to know what you're doing now. I hope for the best.
You speak for your own lies now.
It's a good month. So I'll just be the way I am. I'm still doing fine anyway.
Adios.
Labels: how my heart felt like now.
