Salyieha.
Babe. U really mean a lot to me.
U've been there for me. U've cried with me.
I thank god for producing a friend like yoou.
Also producing ain, hennie, rohze n nita.
I just wanna say thanks for everything you have done.
Cause having an issue with my sis really cut me deep down inside.
Now that I fought with her, I really need you guys. I missed her hugs.
Joking with her. I missed it. But I couldnt accept some facts how my mum
and dad blame me blindly for what happened.
And you guys are my sister now. Thanks for hugging me
this morning babes. Love u guys.
Especially u babe. Shafa has her own problems.
So i wont disturb. Haisshh. I just need the deepest hugs from u now.
Once again babe, I am really thankful u're around.
And to u : Thanks for saying I am actually nothing to you. I tell u what,
YES. I let u win this time. I am kurang ajar. U cared for me. U were there for me.
U loved me. U give me everything I asked from you. U whatever me when i have problems with mum. Now everybody is giving face in you. Blaming me for whatever happens
between the both of us.
I hope you are happy now. Cause i fucking rude what. But people say,
"ke mana tumpahnya lauk kalau tak ke nasi" Have u ever asked yourself,
"kenapa adik aku kurang ajar macam gini?" If its not from you also,
But have I been kurang ajar to you every single day kak?
Can u tell me? Have i been rude to you every single day?
I hope so not ahh. I only say things like that when I lose my temper.
I've tried to give my fullest respect to you kak. But all i get everyday from you is,
"jangan lah bodoh!" "diam ah bodoh!" all u say is bodoh n bodoh n bodoh n bodoh to me.
You even say that to abang and he was actually very patient until the day he
cannot take it and put his hands on ur face. U didnt realise how sabar he was.
Why should you talk about sense of respect to me, when u didnt show that to abg?
But, how come when I talk to you using kau aku jer, u already cannot take it?
How come abang is so patient, but u.. ? He's still ur abg. No matter how much u hate him or always been criticising him about his life with mum.. I still see him as a good person..
I still loved him..Yes. After saying this. You may feel like slapping my face.
But I still blame myself for being rude to you. I am sorry.
That's all I can say. Thanks or no thanks. I still dont feel like talking to you.
Just take care of yourself.
Sooooo. Girlfriends seem to have lots of problems now.
I myself. Tonnes sehh.
I dunnoe lahhh. Feeling super down now.
Yesterday cried for 3 hours.
Today another 3.
Tomorrow. The future days to come.
I dont know lahh. Its all up to god. (:
Love,
zie.
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