Friday, February 29, 2008

Today's BOOSTER Session was FUN !
Hehe. But yet the day is tiring.
Hmmm. Well again, and of course.
The things that DAAANN mentioned has
put all of us through a lesson.
Thaankss ! Cant wait to see you again.

Well, today there hasn't been much things going on.
Except our "pentas udara". Was bloody fun.
Heeees. We risk our recess, AGAIN.
And was super hungry. Including Rohze. (:
Hmmm. Annnnd the F&N test was manageable.
Carotenes kapee DI !
And HAD to re-do development.
So I did, after school.
SS, was hmmmm. rather boring i think.
EL, sort of nuthing to do. WAHAHA.

So it's rather relaxed. And agaaain, I missed SHA.
I am so glad daddy is okay. He's back.
And whoever put that jarum in his hand, F.O kay?
And the best thing isssss. His MC is untilll.
17th March. Is that cool or what?
Until my march holidays is over.
So what does it tells? Balek kampung pe pak?
Nyahahahaha. I noeee. No PULUS.
Kekeke. Okaay dehhhh.
I'm off to more resting.
Cause its been a long time since i watch serious TV.
KAY? BYEEE.

ps : miss boyfie's VOICE ! URGH ! call me pleeaase !

love,
zie.

Labels: MINE IS A DIFFERENT STORY

Monday, February 25, 2008

Hey guys.
A few things to be mentioned today. [so the debate]
First, was to fail my English Test.
With a freaking pathetic 5 marks kay.
That's a never.
And what is more neverrr is failing MALAY test.
By one pathetic mark. Which is really bringing me down
to the core. But like what the fcuk,
if you fall, get up and move ahead.
Never give up lah okay. Like NEVER means NEVER.

And then the debates, we lost.
But I am proud to say that we won.
Cause if it wouldn't be for 5-3, who else would debate.
I just love my class. We won in our hearts.
As we actually had the chance to do our best.
And we did our best, satisfyingly.
Girlfriends Leha, Ain n Hennie.
We forgot a group hug. We dont mind losing.
All we know that the 4 of us, have been really
strong to fight ourselves with our opponent.
Kayy wait. Am I like debating here?
Nyahahaha. Whatever kaayyy.
I just love u girls lah kies ! We did it! YEAY!
Thanks to my lovely 5-1 students,
especially didi n sy. For your strong encouragement.

Love,
zie.

Labels: GET UP, MOVE AHEAD.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Heheheheks.
Yesterday was full of crap lah.
But worthy.
Early morning, crap with didi n syah
in comp lab.
Like super crap gilerr.

Didi-
"eh B-Carotene ape ehh?"
"alamak aku lupe uh di."
"Ouh aku tau. Carotene to carrot kan?"
Ahahahaha. Mepek sak.
Syah-
"syah send gambar kau."
-silence- tnggu hp berlampu.
"di, die send ke tak uh gmbar?"
di-"tak pooon."
syah-"huh? ohhhh hahahahaha."
Ehh bole pening lah siot.
Off too MacD's for lunch.
And kite crap pasal sec 1 and two days pulak.
How 1-6 anti 1-8. Who stead with who.
Who anti who.
Haiyoo. Those days. Let it be lahh.
Now we are together. As girlfriends till eternity.
Like what hennie said "i dont believe in forever".
Okayy, lupp didi syah n rohze. :D

And did the debates with girlfriends.
At Hennie's crib.
And still not done yet. Nvm. At least mine is going
to the end. Kekeke. Love gfs lahh sehh !
Hehehe. Went home in the evening.
Saw ghani, AGAIN. CRAAP.
And headed home, and go out again.
To dad's old best friend's house at TOA PAYOH.
Had fun there. Heehees.
And then to, kakak's boyfie's house, abg RUDI.
And his nephews are soo adorable !
The elder brother call me "kakaaak!"
The younger brother, MY FAVOURITE,
call me "cik zieeee" nyahahaha. Cute little people.
Lupp u guys laahh.

So it was soo much love !!

Love,
zie.

Labels: CRAP is FUN

Friday, February 22, 2008

It's been intense the whole time in school today.

We didnt got in the semi-finals for the debates.

And on monday, we have to bring ourselves

to face 3-4.

Let's put aside the things that we haven't been

very happy with.

I thank Ain, Hennie and Leha to have stayed strong

and pull it through. To whatever obstacles facing us.

Love you guys.

I manage to take a break. I mean. From those

intense moments. Met SHA.

And went to chill. And it was one of the most

memorable CHILL we had.

Had KFC for lunch.

And we headed off to the park.

Near my house. Heees.

Notice how slack I was. No make-up.

Black shirt, jeans and t-shirt.

We talked about stuffs. And had some lovely candiees.

Which is soo YUM. And soo lovee.

The weather is soo perfect. And I love the situation

soo much. So back in the old days.

Eating candies. And swinging. Nyahahaha.

Swinging lah babe. I admit I had lots of fun.

Thanks SHA. Love u soo muchiee !

Yesterday called boyfie in the middle of the night.

Haiyooo. Miss him soo much seehh.

Glad to hear his voice. But then, aiyoo entah lahh!

Bye ahh. Take care all.

Love,

zie.

Labels: DONT WASTE HAPPY MOMENTS.

Thursday, February 21, 2008

A few things to be mentioned today.
First of all, I miss Leha. :D
So does everyone else. Heeees.
Even if it is for one day.
And, we handed the debates speech before time.
That's a good thing already.
Girlfriends, a serious good luck !

And then it's maths.
I cried. Leha dont worry. Its nothing actually.
Ain, i cried becaaaause, i phobia lahh my
best friends get angry. I get really
scared until I cry. Like I did just noow.
Mcm budak2 sia nangis.
Not that I marah because u marah mee.
Simply because, I am just afraid to lose
you. That's why I nangis. When u marah je,
then I macam thinking why am I
being so useless. Especially when u said
"this is what we call friends."
It's not that I dun wanna
tell u who just now. But then, again Ain.
I am soo sorry. Dah tau siapee kan?
Yeaah. So, that's the reason why.
I will get scared if gfs are angry.
Cuz i dun wanna lose them. =)

Aite. I'm really having a major headache now.
I dunnoe lahhh. Been thinking too much.
Things that are so minor. That is soo not
affecting my life. Nyahahaha.
K laah. Till here. =D

Girlfriends, I love u girls so much !

Ouh snap. I just called kak zai.
And she said, boyfie tk jadi gi mane2!
Love him soo much!
My headache okay already. Nyahahhaa.

Love,
zie.

Labels: LOVE TILL ETERNITY.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Things have been going on real good.
I'm so glad.
Yesterday, boyfie texted me.
Using, i dunnoe whose number.
He said he misses mee.
I wish I could help him in some way.
Haiyerr. I miss him alsoo. BADLY siaa.
Fall in lupp laahh.

The Teachers' Heaven !
I did the debates speech today with girlfriends.
Nyahahaha. Plus Bazilah. Kekeke. Maut pe.
Well, we discussed ALL OUT.
And got 80% of the points ready to go.
To girlfriends, good luck for this debates.
May we make it to the finals,
and win something for The Teachers' Heaven.
Gooooooooooooooooo 5-3!

And finally, I am in good terms with sis.
Thank God. :D Leha, thanks for your advise.
It really ended sooner than I thought.
Her text saying : Wanna accompany me to bazaar?
Shocked me to death. In the end,
I apologized. It's not too laaaaaaaaaaaatee.
Hahahaha. I'm singing that song over n over again.
Irritated plaaaak.
Kay all, take care.

love,
zie.

Labels: RISE TO EVERY CHALLENGE.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Things are getting better.
Madrasah today was as expected.
Me, hearing songs frm my PSP.
Instead to thaat boring ustazah.
Julianah played her games.
Nabilah n Atikah do their thang.
Nyahahaha. Boring giler siaaa.
Like wth. Damn it.
So, i booked sha.
Asked her out to "study".
But we talked. I told her everything
that's happening in my life.
Especially about ISKANDAR.
I've received msgs from numbers i dont know,
telling me that HE is going somewhere.
And we be coming back for long.
Haish i'm freaking worried already.

Off i went to CIVIC.
With shaaa. And started my story-telling.
From A-Z. Nyahahaha.
Suddenly i felt that i miss my cousins.
When I saw abang didi, i get freaking excited.
Summore balek to sha's house.
And sha bought a new storybook.
Thanks to me, she's now starting to read FICTION books.
Look at that Nabilah, she's now reading it.
Haiiyooo. When i started malay novel, she start.
Now fiction books. Hmmmm.
Get to meet grandmotherrr. Missed her siaaa.
And den, to cik ana's house.
Missed my minah kampung. And my abg long who will
turn "13" soon. nyahahaha.
Alaaaa. All that happened soo fast.
Wished could spend more time. Alerr.
Love them lotss laahh. Haiyerrr.
K aite. That's all ehh. for today.
Sha, I love you.

love,
zie.

Labels: WHERE ARE YOU GOING.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

I was doing my F&N and i get too bored.
So i took out my camera. Took a pic of myself.
And then i took a paper and drew his name.
The weird things is, its in pink. Soo not me.
And i've never took pictures like that. Tying my hair,
sideways. And doing PEAACEE. Nyahahaha.
That shows, when i think of him, i go craaazyyy.

I'm sick of everything that is happening to me.
I decided to let it go.
Just fuck it okay.
I dont wanna bother of what is happening to people
who are changing their attitude towards me.
Or even bother to talk to her.
All i wanna do now. Is to move on.
And be the way I am before.
Happy with my girlfriends.
Always talking to my parents.
Always doing crazy things with my brother.
Always messaging kak zai to ask her how she is.
And even how my darling is doing.
Cause I realise, the people that I have like right now with me,
is strong enough to support me to move on with my life.
Not to forget IM. thanks dude.

And i badly miss him already.
Haiyerrr. I can still take it sehh.
People are asking. Zie, do you have a boyfriend?
How should I say where he is?
Hmmm. But like whatever, I'll always love him to the core.

Weekends is catch up time. Nyahahahha.
And I am seriously catching up.
Since 3.15pm to 7.30pm I have been doing chem & f&n.
Thinking of my development.
Tmr is no rest lahh babe. Tmr is maths. Okay?
Duhhhh. O levels laahh.
What do you expect? Not even one day of fully rest lah babe.
Its been almost 3 weeks. I havent been going out,
to somewhere I always had fun. Not yet. No time.
Baaaaaaaaaaaaahhh! Ok done.

love,
zie.

Labels: KEEP ME STRONGER.

Friday, February 15, 2008

having hard times.

Firstly, a thousand thanks to my girlfriend,
Salyieha.
Babe. U really mean a lot to me.
U've been there for me. U've cried with me.
I thank god for producing a friend like yoou.
Also producing ain, hennie, rohze n nita.
I just wanna say thanks for everything you have done.
Cause having an issue with my sis really cut me deep down inside.
Now that I fought with her, I really need you guys. I missed her hugs.
Joking with her. I missed it. But I couldnt accept some facts how my mum
and dad blame me blindly for what happened.
And you guys are my sister now. Thanks for hugging me
this morning babes. Love u guys.
Especially u babe. Shafa has her own problems.
So i wont disturb. Haisshh. I just need the deepest hugs from u now.
Once again babe, I am really thankful u're around.

And to u : Thanks for saying I am actually nothing to you. I tell u what,
YES. I let u win this time. I am kurang ajar. U cared for me. U were there for me.
U loved me. U give me everything I asked from you. U whatever me when i have problems with mum. Now everybody is giving face in you. Blaming me for whatever happens
between the both of us.
I hope you are happy now. Cause i fucking rude what. But people say,
"ke mana tumpahnya lauk kalau tak ke nasi" Have u ever asked yourself,
"kenapa adik aku kurang ajar macam gini?" If its not from you also,
But have I been kurang ajar to you every single day kak?
Can u tell me? Have i been rude to you every single day?
I hope so not ahh. I only say things like that when I lose my temper.
I've tried to give my fullest respect to you kak. But all i get everyday from you is,
"jangan lah bodoh!" "diam ah bodoh!" all u say is bodoh n bodoh n bodoh n bodoh to me.
You even say that to abang and he was actually very patient until the day he
cannot take it and put his hands on ur face. U didnt realise how sabar he was.
Why should you talk about sense of respect to me, when u didnt show that to abg?
But, how come when I talk to you using kau aku jer, u already cannot take it?
How come abang is so patient, but u.. ? He's still ur abg. No matter how much u hate him or always been criticising him about his life with mum.. I still see him as a good person..
I still loved him..Yes. After saying this. You may feel like slapping my face.
But I still blame myself for being rude to you. I am sorry.
That's all I can say. Thanks or no thanks. I still dont feel like talking to you.
Just take care of yourself.

Sooooo. Girlfriends seem to have lots of problems now.
I myself. Tonnes sehh.
I dunnoe lahhh. Feeling super down now.
Yesterday cried for 3 hours.
Today another 3.
Tomorrow. The future days to come.
I dont know lahh. Its all up to god. (:

Love,
zie.

Labels: WINNERS CONTROL EMOTION.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Something incredible happened.
Passing my physics test was expected.
But passing my MATHS TEST, was beyond my imagination.
Although the pass is not good enough. But I did it. Its still a pass.
I could not believe I passed. But I believed that I could do it.
Mum, I MADE A GOOD START.
First of all, Thanks to Hennie, for ensuring that I'll pass.
Now that I did.
Although I'm not in good terms with HER,
nothing will ever stop me from being myself,
nothing will ever stop me to succeed. =D
Cause winners move forward.
Okay Leha? winners move forward !
Leave behind failures !
WINNERS ehh. Not CLEANERS. Hahahaha.

Kekekeke. I had another crazy day today.
Again with my darling Leha n Ninie. PLUS DIDI.
During m.t lesson.
Ehh sial ahhh. super crazy siaaa.
Seriouslyyyy. Ninie nangis mcm hilang laki sakk.
I'm glad that DIDI darling was happy.
At least I could make her laugh, as a friend kaan.
Love u darling !
Leha was soo stop itt ehh with that ROGAYAH face.
HAHAHAHA. GF Ain was a bit moody..
Babes. Dun sad2 kaaay. If didi can be strong, so can you!
And gfs will always be there for you.
WINNERS CONTROL EMOTION. Lupp u laahh kaay!

I miss NUR SHAFAWATI. BADLLYYY!
And it's been a long time since I met her. And keluar with her.
Shaaa. Sms lah aku sekali sekalaaaa. HMPH !
Gi town jooom. Hehehhee.
Ataaau. National Library. HAHA! Seriously sehh sha.
I miss you a lots. Now that I gaduh with my sister.
I need you sehh. =D Take care darlings.
I need to tell you pasal my BOYFIE lagikk.
Si ISKANDAR [syah dun get it wrong] tuuuuu.
Hehehhee. Lupp you!

Seems like all the paragraph has the word SERIOUSLY now.
Hehehehe. Thats all folks !
Take care.

OK2! Mak just passed by my room.
I said : MAK ADEK PASS TEST MATHS.
Mak : Alhamdulillah.. Syukur..
I said : DENGAN PHYSICS.
Mak : Alhamdulillah.. Syukur..
Okaayy dehhh!
Dah macam robot pulak mak akuu.
Best laahhh diee! Muacks to everyone i LUPP !

love,
zie.

Labels: CRAZINESS FALLS TODAY.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Today was crazy.
Real one.
I meant 5-3.
Hahaha.
But first of all, 2.4 sucks lah kaay.
Cibai arh. If only i put in that little more effort.
Cause I noe thats not the fastest I can go.
I stopped and walk a thousand times.
Chem, waas tiring laahh kaann.
Hmmm. F&N had a small "fight" with Girlfriend Leha.
I cried. Heees. Again Leha, i'm sorry.
I just get scared when I see my gfs get angry
simply because i dont wanna lose them. (:
And the way wan said "pasaal kau ah niieee"
really pulled me deep deep down.
Erm. F.T wants to get the class done fast !
And I dunnoe. Bookshop is closed. Hehe.
Kay whatever. Physics n Maths lahh. Was giler.
As usual.. Starting from Ain, Nita, Is, Me, Leha, Hennie, Wan,
Fido, Afad, n Rohze. Aiyooo.
Giler babi siaaa. Soo the kecoohh. So much BONDING.
Okaay sooo. Go home time laahh! Weeheeee.
Sit at home. Have to do my poster, coursework, maths n physics !
Let's go and do some school-work !
BYE ALL.

p/s : I really hate missing you LOVE ; Haisshh.

Monday, February 11, 2008

I've got lots to tell. =D
Here it goes.

6th Feb 08.
CNY celebration !
And it waaas a total different environment.
I missed the old times. Where 4/8 was soo much noisier.
Mr Faraz said we were like in the old folks home now.
Soooo quiet. Soooo focused.
But the the teamwork, was there.
Keep it up TEACHER's HEAVEN ! Woohoo.
Debates was re-opened. Thanks to MUM the II.
So Ain, Rohze, Hennie, Saleha, Wan and ME will work hard yeah !
And also, we completed our shooting for Rancangan 3R edisi AHHH.
So that's a good job well done girlfriends ! =D
Tmr is kampong timeeee ! Boyfriend here I cooome !

7th Feb 08.
Weeeheee ! Kampoooong laaaaaahh!
Had delifrance for breakfast.
Met Om, Cik zizah, Nazrul and Wak mimi.
Yayeee. :p Here comes one big family.
Off we goooo. Sad to say, the journey sucks.
Too many people going to MORO for CNY.
Fcuk those kiasu cetuk laaah.
But i felt that it was faast.
When i reached, everything was simply soooo warm..
welcoming.. aiyaaa.. dunnoe how to describe laah.
Kak zai said "die gi kerja pat laut"
i was like : definintely a LIEEE !!
I saaaw hiiimmmm! Few hours after i dah sampaai.
Was sitting down. Resting. Looking out the door.
This hot guy, wearing red shorts. Shirt-less.
His muscular body. OMG!! That's my BF.
Waaaarrgghhh. Miss him giler laahh siooot.
Muacks to u! At night was kenduri.
Just a doa selamat for my bro's completion of his wedding. :D
So i wore baju kurung, which wasnt really necessary. HAHA.
And I was sitting down again wit kak ana.
And there he go. Wearing baju kurung and songkok..
Carrying the dulang and lauk. Alermaaaak. Ganteng bangeet sehh!
And he comes again after the kenduri to pick up the plates.
Ehhh kaay. Love him k. Wak mimi loved the kampuung seiii.

8th Feb 08
2nd Day. Time for kak ana and abg to go hooomeee.
Hahahaha. I still got 2 more days sehh !
But bfore that, went to telunas. For swimming.
The reason i become sooo blaack! [girlfriends dont laugh. hmph !]
And I spent my daaay soo right. Cause I just love kak zai lah.
She's the best! She take me everywhere.
And i keep seeing my darling. Haiyooo. Yet soo sombong gilerr.
Wonder why. I didnt feel good at times. Hmmm.
This is the reason why. The night I met him,
he confessed a few things. And I cried. Like I've never cried before.
Seriously siaaa. His words are soo fucking aiyooo sehh !
Damn I really love you is. Things wouldnt be so wonderful in kampung
without you. Its gonna be 4 years. There's more to come.
I'm never gonna waste it just like thaat.
So I thought I would cry for the day. But I didnt. I cried again.
With that woman. I cant describe her already. But whatever,
Come to think of it, I THINK ITS ALREADY A WASTE OF TIME TALKING
TO YOU. So likee yaaa. Whatever. Love IS !

9th Feb 08
Om, Cik zizah, Nazrul, Wak Mimi, and HER went home.
I didnt even say anything to her. Good lorr !
3rd day kaaan. Meetin him for the last timee.
Waliaaao so wonderfuul. I just fall in lupp with you every single daay arrhh.
SHA wait for my stories ! (:
But we talked for a while jer. Tk sempat bebual banyaak.
At least i get to smell your sweater. Haiyerr.
Maseh melekaat sehh ! Love u laahh so mucchh !
Besoook baleeeek !
Wrote a letter. Bfore i slept. Hehe.

10th Feb 08.
Aiyooyoo. I receive a letter ! Hahahaha.
Sehati sejiwa. Macam tauuu jer.
Read it. Understood it. Loved it, Loved you !
Hhehehe. But, my journey back was sooo frustrating lahh.
No speed boat. Went to batam with sampan.
That's one bad thing kaaan.
Reach there at 3pm [Spore time]
The only available ferry was 7.20pm[Spore time]
Ehh siakk ahh. 4 bloody hours sehh i wait wit parents.
Siool ahhh. I dunnoe why I was soo patient.
Wasted 4 hours of my life standing there.
Doing nothing ! Ridiculous laahh siooot.
Hp batt flat. PSP batt flat. ALL FLAT! aiyoo.
Reach singapore also taxi wait for 1 hr. Bodoh kaan.
Aiyooyoo.
Like i said got soo many cinone. Stupid.
Reached home aroooound 10.45pm?
ok best. balik tidooooo!!
Hahahhaha. Nite2.

11th Feb 08.
Which is todaaay!
Back to schoooool. Weeeheeee.
Girlfriends are having a good laugh,
cause I'm blacck. Precisely kay!
Cuz they say i return from India.
Aiyaaaaa. Soo buruk my face..
School was as usual.
To GF Ain : Make decisions wisely next time darling,
If he ever comes back to you again. I advise you avoid.
I want the best from you. But then, it's still up to u to decide
girlfriend. I'll love you no matter what happens.
And will always be there WITH YOU thru thick n thin.
Love you babes ! =)
And also leha hennie rohze n nita! Muuaccksss.
CCA was supper dupper COOOL.
Hahahha. I miss everyone in school laah.
Take care all.
Time for me to start school-working!

And to ISKANDAR, my darling.. Hehehe.
I will always love you.
Although I hate missing you.
I'll stay strong ! =D
Kaaay that's all !

love,
zie.

Monday, February 4, 2008

READ THIS CAREFULLY.

SHA.
Can stop blaming your self tak?
Stop saying u this u that lah.
Ey. I'm not saying it's your fault lah.
But look eh, its like so obviously u dun wanna tell me
things just because i USED TO hate ridhuan.
Dun try to say u tanak susahkan me.
Eh u noe rite I will always be there for you no matter what happens.
U noe I have always lend u my listening years.
Alamak. I dunnoe what else I can say sehh.
I cannot get angry anymore.
Cause I dah penat. Seriously.
I'm getting sick already.
And u dont have to say sorry.
That's all.

zie.

Labels: INTENSE BRAIN.