Couldn't find time to blog but I had to this time.
Cause I dont even know how to talk to you right now.
Our conversations seems to bring quarrels and fights every single moment.
And truly, deeply I am sorry for avoiding you the past few.. weeks? i guess~
And I am so sure that till today at this moment, that you havent realise how upset I was about your behaviour since our last date?
Tell me who wanted to watch tron so much and slept throughout the whole movie?
Tell me boy, hah. That is number one thing i'm pissed off with. $6 is a lot! You can go a long way with ENAM DOLLAR. Number two, you kept quiet after the movie?
And throughout our whole journey back home? You fikir kelakar? And make me like a stupid asshole kat situ terdiam ajeee? Then you act like as if nothing happened?
Eh omg, I know you are tired. I know you havent slept. But, BUT! Did I ask you not to sleep??
Did I?? Emo sikit, tak tido. gaduh sikit, tanak tido. banyak fikiran. itu ini semua tak tido..
So siapaa yang bersalah ni? I ke? You boleh tanya I kenapa lagi?
You tak tido, tapi you nak jumpa I. And you jumpa I, you buat muka penat. You tido dalam wayang. Nak makan pon senyap. Ehhhh? I pun sekolah k. I pun penat.
You accident, I penat.. I pegi jugak pasir ris tengok you. Ada I buat muka? Ada I diam?
Ehhh seriously ahhhhh, bila nak berubah? Dari bila you cakap you akan berubah you akan berubah. Now I SHALL SAY THIS TO YOU : NI DAH DECEMBER? MACAM MANAAA?
You said you will change. But things get worser. And I feel nothing.
I feel nothing cause I am so used to getting all this from you.
But how long do you think I can survive? How long? Can you survive like this?
You thought this will be nothing.
But have you really think it through? People will say to me: Kau call dia je lah zie kau call dia je lah zie kau call dia je lah zie.. AKU DAH PENAT.
How am I suppose to feel ? Tell me please. :'(
I dont think I wanna do this anymore.. You saying sorry nowadays, feels like nothing.
Cuz I know this sorrow will return in no time.
Think about this.
I need a hug. :(
Zie Suzianah.-
