Read this again.
If u think, my prev. post hurt u so much.
Then read again.
Sorry if I ungkit all the things back.
If u think my words hurt u so much..
Then u should think twice uhh.
Mine was even more hurtful. When all this while,
i kept quiet. Until now, I had to let it out.
U keep calling me bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh
BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH
BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH everyday without fail..!
U are like cursing me with ur words alreadyyy.
Until now i became really stupid. I became a stupid sister.
U may be kidding at times. But I know you well.
I know when u really mean the word bodoh.
Yes. I know u gave me everything I wanted.. I appreciate that.
I Love You even more for that. BUT,
Remember at east coast?? When everyone knew i couldnt ride a bicycle.
If u DONT realise, u actually made me malu.
U said "adik, adik sewa tu sudah.. Yg 3 roda. Untuk org2 CACAT."
And every single one of them, who heard you,
laughed at me. U SAID IT STRAIGHT INTO MY FACE.
THANKS. U WERE SO UNLUCKY TO HAVE A CACAT SISTER LIKE ME.
And u did not just called me cacat once kakak.
U called me cacat many times.. Sometimes it will go "kau kan cacat..."
"EEE CACAT CACAT!!!" U did not even realise.
But I still kept quiet about it. To you, it may be a joke?
But to me, sial uh. my own sister calling me that. Right in front of everyone.
And, when i told you i got 3 F9s for my prelims.
You laughed and said "haha. dont even smell poly adik. Pegi masuk ite sudah."
THANKS A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE THAT KIND OF SUPPORT!!!!!!!!
One thing i really want to go poly is because i want to better than you.
I soo want to beat you. Cause u told me a lot of times that I am stupid
and cannot go far. But when I think I needed ur support at this time,
U demoralised me. U sanked my heart down.
I didnt say i'm buying gifts for my gfs on the prev post for no reason.
I didnt say they're more important. I said that because I would think that
they are more like becoming my sisters than u are.
They dont say me bodoh. They dont say me cacat. They have always been encouraging
me in my studies.. I listened to them. whatever hurtful things u said to me,
I will tell them. And they would say dont bother with what u say to me.
I thought ur words are gonna be the one i'm gonna remember when i take
my exams.. But none of the voices in my head was urs. Until today.
So, if u think that my words are hurtful.
Then think about what u said to me as well uh.
I am sorrry if u didnt mean anything in that msg.
U dun have to say this as well : In YOUR Adidas bag.
the fcuking word YOUR doesnt have to be BIG for no reason.
It may be just one word. To me it does matter uh.
Well, maybe you have your own reasons. Idk.
It dont matter to me anymore.
I promise I will pay for my psp. Thanks.
I couldnt ask for more.
I'm sorry once again. If I hurt ur feelings.
love,
zie.
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