Thursday, October 30, 2008
i miss this girls. badlyy.
please. i pray to god lah ehk.
that we will be back like normal after Os.
No more tension. Puhleeeaasseee lahh.
well, i love that pic.
causeeee. hmmm. its taken on my birthday!
weeeeee.
love u girls. nita.leha.ain.hennie.rohze.
btwwwww, maths was erkkk. okaay2 lah ehk tadik.
but one thing that is fuck was,
i could not prove the equation.
soo time was given out like that. just for that 3 marks qn.
that made me have little time for another 4 questions.
whatever. its over.
its time for s.s.
but tmr, is HSM3 for me. definitely. (:
love,
zie.
Labels: sayang girlfriends.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
my first impressions towards matreps,
was baad. i always thought they were a disgrace.
well.
the first thing that crossed my mind was,
shit. disgraceness has arrived.
ahahahas.
but things were different.
yes. i mean
matreps. golden hair, tattoos and studs.
they shared jokes with us. they were polite.
i wasn't thinking if they want anything from us.
they were nice. seriously.
handshakes. how mesra.
we shared laughter. there was madness.
for the mean time i thought we were closed friends.
well, i learnt some lessons.
its not really lessons lahhh.
i came about to know how they were really were.
i realised i was bad.
i really want to get to know them, socially.
how they started to have a life like that?
how their behaviour came about. i feel sad seeing them,
in that kinda situation.
alhamdulillah, i am blessed with fortune.
hahhaha. they even asked to leave bfore the sun is down.
how sweeeet..
so they became my good friends for a short while.
the sweet thing is when they walked us out of the place we were.
haahahaha. thanks to them,
now i am head over heels with one of them..
some people just remind me of some people.
but, fair WARNING : whenever they approach you,
keep ur valuables with you, cause they are broke.
and secondly, cause they love to touch your things.
jakon mah. uneducated. how saad.
i still feel bad... hmmmmm.
take care lah people.
gotta continue mugging for phy! :)
love,
zie.
Labels: is for matreps only. not MINAHS, this post
Monday, October 27, 2008
it feels sad.
seeing or knowing that u're being neglected
once in awhile.
or maybe, u feel useless.
or helpless in some people's eyes.
but whatever.
i am still the best i can be.
someone whom someone else can rely on.
end of o-levels is nearing.
everyone is desperate.
jyeahh. suffer now, enjoy later.
lookin forward to celebrating wit gfs esp. :
- karaoke (if it even existed in some of them's mind)
if not, i'll just go wit leha. haha.
the one i love most, major!
i need to buy a lot of things..
again i'm mentioning it.
and, mum is telling me to check out the internet,
for some hols places. looking forward.
i am soooo not gonna look for a job.
cause. i just want to be at home and laze.
as well as burning my fats. :D
new blogskin. new song. some things, need to be changed.
every single bit in this blog, has a meaning.
now, the song. is the most important factor. WEING!
i just need to go kampung badly.
i need to settle every THING.
although i am not good at saying goodbyes, or separating,
with someone special, i have to do it.
i cannot lie to myself even further. hook or crook. i have to.
i know, 70% of the population in that island
would be delighted that i am breaking up with him.
and some of them will say i am bad.
some will continue to charm me, - eww.
whatever. i want to lose everything.
secondly, i am excited upon seeing my beloved cousin,
starting a whole new life. (: great sis!
u won your lovers heart.
thats all. i need to change.
i want to.
love,
zie.
Labels: change i need it.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
things are going on fast.
days passed by.
and a few more days till end of o levels.
i mentioned to sha,
about the things i want to buy.
which i bought alr.
like one esprit blouse at $40.
and one bossini RED blouse at $15.60.
haahahaha.
and the places i want to go..
too many too mention.
but one place i am dying to go to.
it starts with the letter K !
(:
i'm coming guys. i'm coming..
hahahahahaha.
and, i have been dancing since 10+.
watching the deepavali concert.
with mum and sis.
felt just like an indian!
weeeeee! loves.
i think i burnt some fats!
p/s : i'm falling in love once more.
love,
zie.
Labels: fats fats fats
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
hi.
i hate myself now.
thanks people.
thanks for hating whatever i like.
everything seems to be different now.
at home. in school. outside?
whatever.
i cant even kiss her now.
she had never said no if i want her to do pancakes.
she is so different towards me.
i know i couldnt give u money.
but.. whatever fuck lah heh.
at least, see myself as a human being also.
we all have our own perspective.
soo we have to respect each other's choice.
dun goo eee and comment.
biar lah eh.
nk ckp ape cakap.
let me do wat i do.
and live my own life..
i've never even kutuk anything on you people.
fuck care.
i want to be what i want.
i need o levels to end soon. badly.
fuck home. fuck school. fuck o levels.
i need to go kampung.
i want sha.
love,
zie.
Labels: love you all
Friday, October 17, 2008
hello beautiful readers.
i have 3 more days to the real thang.
O Levels. And yesaahh. I still have time to blog?
Kiwek. Grrrr. Addiction lah sehh.
Well well, laptop baru mahh.
Yes. I hope so.
That this would be the last time i'm posting.
Till 11 November. Where freedom comes.
Weeeheeee!
Where the end of secondary school really ends.
With that, I would like to wish all O Level students,
All the Best for this national exams.
May u pursue ur dreams. (:
Okay, lastly, to loved ones.
Thanks for making my birthday the bestest.
And the memorable one.
I thank you all a lot. a thousand thanks.
Thanks dah buat aku nangis.. ! Heee. (:
Whoever lah heh. Who is involved with this.
Especially the ones who shocked me at home !
I love u girls to the maximuuuuummmm.
And, my blood. As in, my raya peeps.
Altho this was the most mendakEST raya,
i still appreciate it. Cause having loved ones to celebrate
together, will still be meaningful.
EXCEPT FOR THOSE yang buat hal sendirik. sialan deh.
Soooo. Thanks manyyyyyy2!
straight forward ehk? Sorry lah. :)
Slamat Hari Raya.
love,
zie.
Labels: pressure starts now
Monday, October 6, 2008
Hey. Thanks for reading my blog.Read this again.If u think, my prev. post hurt u so much.Then read again.Sorry if I ungkit all the things back.If u think my words hurt u so much..Then u should think twice uhh.Mine was even more hurtful. When all this while,i kept quiet. Until now, I had to let it out.U keep calling me bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh bodohBODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH
BODOH BODOH BODOH BODOH everyday without fail..!U are like cursing me with ur words alreadyyy.Until now i became really stupid. I became a stupid sister.U may be kidding at times. But I know you well.I know when u really mean the word bodoh.Yes. I know u gave me everything I wanted.. I appreciate that.I Love You even more for that. BUT,Remember at east coast?? When everyone knew i couldnt ride a bicycle.If u DONT realise, u actually made me malu.U said "adik, adik sewa tu sudah.. Yg 3 roda. Untuk org2 CACAT."And every single one of them, who heard you,laughed at me. U SAID IT STRAIGHT INTO MY FACE.THANKS. U WERE SO UNLUCKY TO HAVE A CACAT SISTER LIKE ME.And u did not just called me cacat once kakak.U called me cacat many times.. Sometimes it will go "kau kan cacat...""EEE CACAT CACAT!!!" U did not even realise.But I still kept quiet about it. To you, it may be a joke?But to me, sial uh. my own sister calling me that. Right in front of everyone.And, when i told you i got 3 F9s for my prelims. You laughed and said "haha. dont even smell poly adik. Pegi masuk ite sudah."
THANKS A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!I LOVE THAT KIND OF SUPPORT!!!!!!!!One thing i really want to go poly is because i want to better than you.I soo want to beat you. Cause u told me a lot of times that I am stupid and cannot go far. But when I think I needed ur support at this time,U demoralised me. U sanked my heart down.I didnt say i'm buying gifts for my gfs on the prev post for no reason.I didnt say they're more important. I said that because I would think thatthey are more like becoming my sisters than u are.They dont say me bodoh. They dont say me cacat. They have always been encouragingme in my studies.. I listened to them. whatever hurtful things u said to me,I will tell them. And they would say dont bother with what u say to me.I thought ur words are gonna be the one i'm gonna remember when i takemy exams.. But none of the voices in my head was urs. Until today. So, if u think that my words are hurtful.Then think about what u said to me as well uh. I am sorrry if u didnt mean anything in that msg.U dun have to say this as well : In YOUR Adidas bag.the fcuking word YOUR doesnt have to be BIG for no reason.It may be just one word. To me it does matter uh. Well, maybe you have your own reasons. Idk.It dont matter to me anymore. I promise I will pay for my psp. Thanks.I couldnt ask for more.I'm sorry once again. If I hurt ur feelings.love,zie. Labels: urgh
Now I've seen it all.I've seen the true colours. Hmmm. I didnt know, I was like that.Thanks to you, I've known myself better today.Ayie called. And said he is going night cycling on FRIDAY. Yes. My birthday. My first thought was i didnt care.I swear that was what I said in my heart.When he said "yelah. nanti u igtkan i malas nk layan u."I was stunned. I was thinking am I really like that?Am I those who mcm really matter for this kind of small things?And i did realise. I was like that.And now, I am going for the change.I realise that this is why some people dont like, the way I am.And that b.i.t.c.h, thinks that I cannot afford what I want.Whatever fuck lah girl. U're my sister? So what ehk.First of all, kalau tu psp kau tanak repair. Kau peh pasal ahh.Aku tk suruh ponnnn kau repair? tk sehh. Tk langsung.Abeh, kalau kau nk repair, just because u want to use it for 1 week?FUCK YOU LAH. Repair barang org tk ikhlas buat per.Mintak balas balekk. Yes. Think whatever u want.Its mine what. I can do whatever I want with it. I DID NOT ASK YOU TO REPAIR. Fcuker. Abeh, dah tk dpt pinjam,suruh aku bayar tu repair charge sendirik? Ehh. Aku tkde hal uhh.Nk bayar tu benda. U can go "Huh? 40 only? I tot like how many hundreds."Abeh apee? If its many hundreds, u think I cannot afford uh?Excusee me, I can afford lah ehk. Aku nye orang pandai simpan duit.Bukan dpt je spend! Dpt je spend! And I use money for NECESSARY things.Mostly on buying gifts for the people i love. Especially my girlfriends!Bodoh. Urgghhh. Step mane nye leh bebual besaaaar.Yes. I may be making this small psp matter thing a big fuss,but hey, once u start, i start. Thats meeee.Yes. So, from today onwards. I promise myself this. I'm going to be independent.I will not ask anything from anyone. I will grow up, giving my parents money,and supporting them. I will not expect so much.
love,-zie.Labels: hmmmm, me?
