heeeeeeeey.
i slept yesterday.
and when i woke up today.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM !
it's 7.08am.
kecoh pe zie.
so yeaah, mum was in a fuzzy mood.
and she said "ckp je lah adik sakit perut"
so yeaah. i went back to sleep!
ahahahahas.
but i miss school u noe?
a 3-day weekend. how fortunate!

leha text-ed me and asked to call.
she told me this funny story.
which is total cuteness! HAHA. :D
my girlfriends are so cutee luhh.
miss them lah kaan.

Why uh? i must miss so many people.
Cannot ler lidat. Cannot take it. :D
[checkin whether eyes are red]
Haahaaaaaaaaa.

love,
zie.

today was sucha looove.



me n sha had a great time mugging.
and also talking.
settled at one place. started to mug.
aaaand sha asked me about boyfie.
and i totally spit out everything that i feel
now. so uneasy and nervous.
talking all the fun stuffs about our bfs
makes my life soo happy.
but yeah. my eyes was read. i didnt noe.
i wanted to cry. wanted to break down.
i did manage to pull it thru and control
those tears. haahaaaaaaaaa. !!!
the thing is. i am so happy to be talking about him..
and i realise i miss him too much.
seriously. heart throb. (:

i really miss you.
and yeah. i made my decision.
i hope it will work well.
this is itttttt.
bye all. miss gfs.
expect some surprises tmr.

love,
zie.

it's been a long time yaw!
ahahaks. school re-opens.
and basically, hell yeah! timetable changes.
everything has changed perharps!
and there goes mum talking about
kampung? again n again.
until i get phobia of 'em.

school was hillarious.
classmates are getting crazy.
girlfriends are still as crazy.
like the first person who talked to me
was gf rohze. and she went like :
"zieeee. i finally went to the zoo!"
doinkkkk. i went "whateveerr rohze???"
hahahaha. she's cute isn't she?
leha and hennie loves. nvr end to laugh wit me.
ain, never ending fadli's story.
and nita.. still the same old her! :D
i love you gaaaaaaaaaaaals.
Congrats Hennie n Rohze for makin it to the Dinner.
i miss every bit of school.
had a new v.p! which i think looks like a psycho!
weird name as weell.
haahaaaaaaaaa.

today was a hell lot of fun!
maths practice was rather understandable.
physics experiment ; as usual.
mr see will go "i dont knooooow!"
hahaha. cute lil dude.
i just hate doing experiments for chem.
especially when it comes to burning.
i am just soo phobiaaa. and just afraid i might
hurt my friends. seriously. I FCUKIN HATE IT.
And Mr Tan's voice? "Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!!!"
Hennie n Me will go like urgggghhh.
We always had a hard time doing those burning.
Damn. But it was still fun.
It's good to end the day with a good note.
Laughing with girlfriends. On our way back home.
ily girls.

see u guys soon.

love,
zie.

Labels: schooooooooool ; working.

school holidays are gonna be over soon.
it has been hell for me.
in fact, it's the worst holiday ever!
school re-opens and i am off to work.
my journey to o-levels.
its gonna be near.
i will make sure. i do my very best.
and give my extreme effort to it.
i'm gonna showww that i can do it!

it's for me. my family. friends. and him.
i love them to the very bits and pieces.
they have given me their support.
and i will show my results towards the end.
take care.

love,
zie.

p/s : i still miss you.

and i'm still crying.
i'm freaking pissed with you.
shit lah. i still dun understand why you suddenly
get so angry with me?
u're so fucking unreasonable.
and? can u even count how many times i went out
with my girlfriends?
NONE. i havent been spending time wit them outside
for months!
y are u not being fair to me?
do u noe how much i've been waiting for today??
why are u being soo annoying!!!
i didnt do anything wrong to you!!
urgghh. i just hate to be with you sometimes.
i wish i'm at sha's now.
its better there than ever!
u seriously dunnoe how much my girlfriends mean to me.
fuck.

and i'm famished! i've been in the room for almost 5 hours.
my giddiness is coming back.
i want to sleep but i'm hungry.
oh god pls drop some food.
i havent been eating since i woke up!

my face looks like i was beaten and raped!
damn.
i dun feel good now.

this day has been fugging tiring for me!
woke up at 12pm.
and i know something wasn't right!
check my phone and there was a text from mum.
she was out to clinic wit dad.
dad couldnt bare the pain on his finger.
so i went "shit. i'm alone at home."
daammmnnn.
bathed. and mugged.
mum called 20 mins after i started to study.
dad needs to go hospitaaaaaaaaaal.
damnnn. i panicked. i rushed.
got ready and met them.

i hate to wait. hate sooo much.
the feeling is suckish!
urggggghhh. fugging hours seh aku tnggu.
almost 4 hours uhh waited for results
whether dad is admitted.
thank god he's not!
but still, i hate waiting waaat.

ouh maann. i miss bf.
so much.
i get envy seeing people wit their boo.
yesterday dad's friend came.
and he pops this question,
"bile eh kau nk balik kampung?"
co-incidently, i was walking pass by them.
and dad go "tgk lah. pertengahan bulan tujuh
atau bulan lapan."
in my mind, i was jumping! i was indeed grinning to myself.
they insisted us to go as it was the
fruit season. hell yeahhh.
everyone's favourite!
but my heart says, sure or nooot want to gooo.
but if we are, it meaaaaaaaaans..
i'm seeing him in a month or two!
hope god grant my wish.
i'm so lonelyyy nowwww. ))):

love,
zie.

Labels: lonely ;

Labels: more indulgence please ;

june holidays have been just fine to me.
it was hell of a week!
some things went right. some things did not.
monday was worthless.
so much crying was done on tuesday.
headed to sha's in the afternoon.
cheered everyone up.
brought families together.
glad there was a smile in my fav aunt's face.
cant bear to see her in pain. ily!
and i love sha too!
cant believe i had to cry at her house also.
i was in hell seriously.
u suck big time. but yet, i am still thinking of you.
i cried soooooo muchh. eeyeeeerr.
kepala ada pusing loh!
watched so many movies. duyung lah. otai.
all the saiful apek thingy.
at least dat cheered me up! it made my day.

glad sha wanted to sleep over at my place.
at least i can hold this pain longer.
the funny thing is, misteri jaaaaaam 12.
ahahahha! siak uhhh sha.
macam paham!
had a hindustan marathon. slept at 3am.
talked about camps.
nyahahahaks.
coool or wat.
and she went home.

and i'm back alone. to my loneliness.
i've been standing strong and happy when u
came into my life.
u have been my support.
and now u left. i feel so weak and seriously crashed down
with all the things u have said to me.
who am i? damn.
i dun wanna be crying all day.
but this tears just roll down by itself w/o u with me.
its never gonna be the same for me.

now hearing ayat-ayat cinta.
i feel so remorseful.
but hey. i'm happy when i see leha is happy.
i'm happy when i see sha happy.
they kept me going! love u girls.

dude, how bout a round of applause?
with or w/o u, i hope i'll still stand strong.
cause u've put on quite a show.

love,
zie.

Labels: keep me going.

first love.
yes. cinta pertama.
it's really difficult cause its far away.
u're the first boy i fell for when i was 6 yrs old.
those eyes charmed me.
u were one hot guy. :D
[except for the first kiss i got in ambon! ewwww ;
total turn off!]


and now i miss them so much i couldnt speak.
i watched so many things yesterday.
and make me realised how important u are in my life.
first i watched salaam e-ishq. HAHAHA.
dun laugh sha. cuz salman khan is in it.
sha, u noe i noe.
i was at disc 2 and this song came up.
and suddenly it focused right at salman's eyes.
aiyooo. then i stop it right away.
duwan to watch! like nightmare u noe..
hahahaha. and i cant stop laughing to myself.
and den i watch cinta pertama.
then got so many lines i take.
here's one of them :

aku merasa ada yang hilang,
tanpa tahuu apa yang sudahku temukan.
aku merasa menemukan,
tanpa tahu apa yang aku cari.
dan aku seperti masih mencari,
tanpa tahu apa yang sudah hilang.

that paragraph gives me a big impact on myself.
and i came across all the letters again in my bk.
it gives me butterflies u noe in my stomach.
whatever lah.
i dun wanna tink about him.
going to sha's later.
gonna laugh my ass out!
byeee.

love,
zie.

Labels: first love ; never ending.

heyyy. i'm back.
back to square 1.
back to school.
missed darlings soo much.
until i dreamt of them on the last in surabaya.
freaky heh?

Surabaya was okaaaaaaaaaaay. 6 out of 10.
i baaaadly want to go swimming!
puhleeeeasseee.
and i wanna go shoppinggggg.
cuz i didnt shop much thereeee.
arggghhh. biar ler.

now i am back.
and more f&n has to be done duuuuuude.
it's okay laaah! resilience.
what's the moral of the story?
whatever uh!
nyahahhahahaha.
missed girlfriends mcm nk giler.

babyboy, i couldnt stop seeing or thinking bout you.
i see you in everyone's face!
Ate MacD's wit leha just now.
and showed her all my letters. hahahahaks.
and she went laughing non-stop.
hey babe, ily so much. SAT?! hahahhaa.
she said "abeh nk nangissss"
ehh siak tk uhhh. kekekekeke..

aite shawty.
c u guys next time.
chris brown is love.
peace.

love,
zie.

Labels: love them all my heart.