and i miss girlfriends like hell.
missed 5-3.
but the interior was all torn and all over the place.
results was inconvincing,
disappointing, funny, yet expected.
chem, failed.
physics, failed.
f&n, failed.
el paper 2, failed.
so how? what had got into this?
i obviously dont blame ANYONE.
but hey, like mr C said,
its a reality check.
like mr TAN said, treat it as a wake up call.
true enough.
but still, i put my utmost ability for this MYE!
i studied until each and every of my family
members came every 10 mins,
to my study table and spare a thought for me.
show me their sympathy.
i did say "never give up"
i did not even studied like that for my N levels.
but hey, i told my self still.
it's a big gap. if the rest can do it. i can.
there is still time left.
many areas of improvements for me
to show PEOPLE how i can do it.
so that the comparison stops forever.
i wanna make those people shut their bloody mouth.
for now, i'm shutting mine.
mum keeps saying "mak nk gi rumah wah."
go. go lah mak. give a kiss to grandma for me.
i wanna meet her. i miss grandma.
but something else is holding me back.
she also asked "how's ur result?"
i said "ntah lahh. semua fail lahh." (while playing psp)
and she said "semua fail? kalau fail jgn harap kau leh gi kampung!"
i said "okay ah."
at that point of time, i told myself i really wanna study.
really wanna give that 100% participation.
but 10 mins later, i thought "me not going to kampung?"
i can dieeeeeeee. hahahaha.
the whole kampung will be asking for meee!
wargghhh. wish life is very easy. naahhh.
to beloved(s), we will work hard okay?
forget the dinner at trader's hotel.
let the whole school embarass our class.
let the whole school say "HAH. 5-3 didnt make it to the dinner?"
so what. mr c said, makan not important.
O-Level important.
So people, wake up to reality.
Let's strive for the better.
as for now, malay intensive revision
for the next two weeks.
go for A1 kayyy.
love,
zie.
Labels: EXAMS ; DINNER : NAHHH.
